Fuckin' Winter.

[when I gaze into those pearly blues

a bright abyss that I once knew

haunts me from my past

it's like a sickness that you can't delude

there's nothing more to hold onto 

but the memory's fading fast

we'll still dance tonight

God, it feels so right

to sing this song as I

force my mind to sleep

we'll still dance tonight

if the moment's right 

to sing this song as I

force my mind to sleep

in case you didn't notice

it's like this every night 

we're both pretending to be something

but we're nothing in the end

tomorrow is a new day

but every day's the same

we're l-l-l-learning nothing

From our ways

if the bloodshed's all we hold onto

what's the point pretending to

have hope for what's been lost

hope for what's been lost

all though I know it's never real

I still have the urge to feel

closer than we are

we'll still dance tonight

God, it feels so right

to sing this song as I

force my mind to sleep

we still dance tonight

if the moment's right 

to sing this song as I

force my mind to sleep

in case you didn't notice

it's like this every night 

we're both pretending to be something

but we're nothing in the end

tomorrow is a new day

but everyday's the same

we're l-l-l-l-learning nothing

from our ways

from our ways

we still dance tonight

God, it feels so right

to sing this song as I

force my mind to sleep

we still dance tonight

if the moment's right

to sing this song as I

force my mind to sleep

in case you didn't notice

it's like this every night

we're all pretending to be something

but we're nothing in the end

tomorrow is a new day

but everyday's the same

we're l-l-l-l-learning nothing

from our ways

from our ways

it's okay]

Someone please tell me how to get past this. How to move on. I can't. I don't think it's possible. It's crushing me. I just want to be free from it. Someone please tell me how...

 

Please. Fix me. Rewire my brain. Throttle me. Repair my heart. Heal me. Rewind my thoughts. Fix me. Please.