The Classic "It's Not You, It's Me"

I promise that what I'm struggling with right now, what you want to make go away, is not your fault. And I've never meant anything more in my life. Please believe me. It's my fault... For not being about to accept things, for hating what I did, for wanting this so much. Quoting Glee: "I want everything too much". I mean... I guess I wish that things hadn't turned out like this, but if this is what you truly want... Well... I guess I'll get over it. It's not like you haven't told me all of this before. I just keep hoping that it's not true. The dreamer in me wants there to be something so badly. I guess I'm just like her... Not letting it go... This is everything I never wanted to happen. I just wanted to be around you. To be friends... Best friends... more? I'm sorry you had to go through this, I'm sorry you had to experience this side of my personality... You've never been anything less than amazing, and I will always love you. I promise. I've never broken a promise I made to you, and I never will. I wish I could talk to you about this. I really, really do. We almost did tonight, but I'm not brave enough. I don't want you to freak out at me or be weirded out. Or even just distance yourself from me. I want you to change your mind. But you won't. ...and deep down in my heart, I know that, but it's wishful thinking.

You're an amazing guy, and I'm so glad that I met you. I am honored, that out of everyone, we seem to be the closest. That's probably because of what went on, early in our friendship, but just know that you made me who I am today. I cried myself to sleep so many times because of you, I sat up half the night just thinking about us, and I had so many emotional breakdowns, but it's shaped me as a person, and the only thing I regret is not telling you sooner; not having the courage. Nothing you ever do or say will change the way I feel about you. I will always love you, I promise.  <3

[when I see your smile, tears run down my face... I will never let you fall, I'll stand up with you forever. I'll be there for you through it all, even if saving you sends me to Heaven... seasons are changing and waves are crashing and stars are falling all for us. days grow longer and nights grow shorter. I can show you, I'll be the one]