Another Heart Calls by The All-American Rejects

[do you remember when we didn't care

we were just two kids that took the moment when it was there

do you remember you at all

another heart calls

yeah I remember when we stole the night

we'd lie awake but dreaming till the sun would wash the sky

just as soon as I see you

I did lie but didn't I tell you

as deep as I need you,

you wanna leave it all

what can I do?

say it's true

oh everything that matters breaks in two

say it's true

I'll never ask for anyone but you

talk to me

I'm throwing myself in front of you

this could be the last mistake

that I would ever wanna do

yeah all I ever do is give it's time you see my point of view

just as soon as I see you

I did lie but didn't I tell you

ss deep as I need you,

you wanna leave it all

what can I do?

say it's true

oh everything that matters breaks in two

say it's true

I'll never ask for anyone but you

but I know all that you want is to figure it out

and God knows I do too

what can I do?

say it's true

I'll never ask for anyone but you

oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

na, na, na, na, na, na

I'm sorry

so what?

but you don't think I've said enough

I'm sorry

I don't care

you were never there

as soon as I see you

I did lie but didn't I tell you?

as deep as I need you

you wanna leave it all

what can I do?

say it's true

oh everything that matters breaks in two

say it's true

I'll never ask for anyone but you

but I know all that you want is to figure it out

and God knows I do too

what can I do?

say it's true

I'll never ask for anyone but you

oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

I'll never ask for anyone but you

oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh]

So I think I'm going to have lyrics posted every week or so, or when I discover a song that I REALLY like. Such as this one by AAR. I hadn't really considered myself an AAR fan, but after discovering this, it was enough to spark an interest. After branching out into other songs, I became hooked. These CDs will definitely be routinely blasting out of my car speakers. A+ for you AAR, A+ for you.

Fuckin' Winter.

[when I gaze into those pearly blues

a bright abyss that I once knew

haunts me from my past

it's like a sickness that you can't delude

there's nothing more to hold onto 

but the memory's fading fast

we'll still dance tonight

God, it feels so right

to sing this song as I

force my mind to sleep

we'll still dance tonight

if the moment's right 

to sing this song as I

force my mind to sleep

in case you didn't notice

it's like this every night 

we're both pretending to be something

but we're nothing in the end

tomorrow is a new day

but every day's the same

we're l-l-l-learning nothing

From our ways

if the bloodshed's all we hold onto

what's the point pretending to

have hope for what's been lost

hope for what's been lost

all though I know it's never real

I still have the urge to feel

closer than we are

we'll still dance tonight

God, it feels so right

to sing this song as I

force my mind to sleep

we still dance tonight

if the moment's right 

to sing this song as I

force my mind to sleep

in case you didn't notice

it's like this every night 

we're both pretending to be something

but we're nothing in the end

tomorrow is a new day

but everyday's the same

we're l-l-l-l-learning nothing

from our ways

from our ways

we still dance tonight

God, it feels so right

to sing this song as I

force my mind to sleep

we still dance tonight

if the moment's right

to sing this song as I

force my mind to sleep

in case you didn't notice

it's like this every night

we're all pretending to be something

but we're nothing in the end

tomorrow is a new day

but everyday's the same

we're l-l-l-l-learning nothing

from our ways

from our ways

it's okay]

Someone please tell me how to get past this. How to move on. I can't. I don't think it's possible. It's crushing me. I just want to be free from it. Someone please tell me how...

 

Please. Fix me. Rewire my brain. Throttle me. Repair my heart. Heal me. Rewind my thoughts. Fix me. Please.

Well, That's Cool.

Apparently I'm the only one who bothers to update these things anymore. Well, whatever. That's cool. It's not like I update it enough as it is. But it's not exactly safe, this world wide web. If you google someone's name, you can find out all sorts of interesting things. I mean... what?

Say Anything's new album is fricking amazing. I am SO in love with it. Max Bemis is a god amongst mere mortals. I bet he'd be Posiden's son. Haha okay I'm sure no one else got that. Well, that's all right. THE LIGHTNING THIEF. http://content7.flixster.com/photo/45/51/14/4551145_tml.jpg Okay so that's not the best picture of him, it doesn't properly illustrate how perfectly his hair cradles his head. You think I'm crazy, but go see the movie. You'll find yourself wishing you had hair like he has. I know I do.

Hmmmm so school is kicking my ass. As usual though, I mean, I'm not really surprised anymore. It's really sucking though. Band's not even fun. I don't get to sit next to Dan. Stupid freshman. Grr. Not to mention that I epically failed at the chair placement. But I'm on 2nd clarinet at least, so it wasn't EPIC failure.

But they're starting to plan for GMB again. Well, soon if not right now. Oh, marching band. My life. I get to be in charge there. Head section leader next year. Hell to the mother fuckin yeah. Because that's how sad and pathetic I am! But now that Josh, Dan, Emily, and Sara won't be there, I'm not sure how Stetty and I are going to survive. It'll be tough. But David and Claire should be there, and we can still have tons-o-fun. I mean, with significantly less dropping of the pants and suggestive wiggling of the eyebrows, we can still laugh a lot. Hmmmm.

We haven't gone to the lake for 2 weeks now, and the last time we went was pretty much a bust. I frankly do not understand how we can text and text and text and then BAM facetime and nothing. You faillllll. I tried. But maybe next weekend. Or the weekend after that. Oh shoot not next weekend we have our Harry Potter Marathon at David's!!!! With all my favorite people who happen to be in band.

Okay, this is it. I've ran out of things to ramble about. This is all until the next time I feel obligated to write here. Until then, SURVIVE.

So... Life Is Good.

:]] It really is. I'm happy. This doesn't happen a lot, generally. I can be a very pessimistic person. It my dad's fault. There are so many things wrong with my gene pool, do you even know? No, you don't know. But that's cool anyways. I'm learning to work with what I've got. Or don't have, in this case. Don't Forget To Write is my current favorite band. Yay acoustics and amazing vocals. All these songs make me so happy. The singer has a really good voice. And I love how I don't know what he, or they I guess, look like, nor their names. It's just about the music. How it should be. Absolutepunk.net is my savior. Free Music Fridays is my savior.

So I have unlimited texting to everyone. Hailee's been taking advantage of it. It's nice to be able to text her all the time, haha. And the rest of my family has also received texting. I taught my dad how to text last night. It was so awkward. My mom texted Alex today while he was at school. I found this ridiculously funny and burst out laughing in the Lincoln parking lot. I'm cool obviously. Along these lines, the whole "unlimited texting" thing, there is a distinct advantage to this. He seemed happy about it. "hahahah finally finally jesus" is a lot of happiness from him, just fyi.  Ahhh I hate how it always has to go through someone else. God forbid I should know. No, that would be ridiculous. xD But I'll get over it. Hopefully. He'd better do something though, I'm not going to do this all a second time.

Adam Lazzara lied when he wrote the words "It's no mistake if it's always repeated."

It's still a mistake, you're just too stupid to fix it.

That's not going to be me.

So I think I'm going to wear my confirmation dress to Zoey's birthday party. Should be a fun time! I'm kinda looking forward to it, granted I don't look like an idiot. Someone pretend to care that I'm excited?

Well we have band tomorrow, so that's all. Goodnight I love you all!

...Is Happy!

I'm finally getting better at this whole, "making friends thing". It's quite sad actually, considering it's approximately 13 years after everyone else gets good at it. But whatever, better late than never!

LAKE THIS WEEKEND. WRESTLING IT UPPPP.

AHHHHHHHHHHH

SURVIVOR STARTS THE 17TH OF SEPTEMBER.


THAT'S ALL.

So, Guess Whose Fucked Up Mouth Isn't Fixed Yet?

Did you guess mine? Because if you did then you're right. I hate this, fuck my life to hell. Goddamn motherfucking assface. GODDAMN. You said that I was done, that I would never need them again. Done means forever, you asshole. Never means never ever. I'm sitting here crying my eyes out. This is the first time I've ever cried this hard. I don't want them again! I actually like the way I look without them, I consider myself attractive with big, white teeth. I don't want FUCKING METAL on them again. I'm so sick of this shit. Goddamn inbreeders. This isn't my fault, and yet there's nothing I can do. Why me? I've suffered for over half of my life with fucking braces and oh look, I'm not done yet. Why not??? Did something not happen in the 8 years that I've had them on? If you can't fucking fix my teeth in that time then obviously they'll never be fixed. Just rip them all out. I'd rather have none than braces for "a couple of months". I've been to hell and back with all the shit in my mouth and what was it for? Nothing. Goddamn. Godfuckingdamn.

Fucking a.

[how come I'd never hear you say / I just wanna be with you / guess you never felt that way]

Hmm... Possibility?

Paperstaple My Heart.

y/y?

Thoughts, opinions, love for me can all go in the comment box.

^ That is to the 3 people that read this.

So It's Not Really All It's Cracked Up To Be...

... It turns out that being hated isn't as much fun as it seems. It kinda sucks to be on the other side of the gun, you know, the barrel side. [That just made me think of TBS and FOB and I got happy for a moment. Sorry.] But at least I know that she has absolutely no idea how to shoot a gun. Which is a good thing. She's an idiot, so I shouldn't even need to be worried in the first place. But yeah. It's not as much fun to be hated as it is to hate someone. Well, maybe that's just me, I guess. Seriously, though. What was I expecting? Was I just supposed to be a bitch, I mean, my true self, and expect her to still be apologetic? No, because I know that what I said was mean. It was mean, but it was so true. It wasn't even the fullest extant of the truth either. Which I'm kinda mad I didn't say now, because she pissed me the fuck off today. But then she went and deleted her Facebook. As did "Courtney Ryan". Wow. I'm just too smart for her. Which, as previously inferred, is not hard. Did she expect me to be an idiot? She's talked to me before, she knows that I'm not like the rest of her classmates. I'm actually smart. [I would like to believe.] So it made me happy to catch on to her ploy so quickly. It made me ridiculously happy, actually. Talking to him made me ridiculously happy tonight too. He's such an idiot. I can't even say. But that's all right, because I love him anyways.

But I need to sleep so I'm not dead tomorrow so nighty-o....

:]]

LOVE.

:]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]

ME ENCANTA LA CONCIERTA DE METRO STATION Y MAYDAY PARADE Y MITCHEL MUSSO Y EVAN TAUBENFELD.

that is all.

Tireddd...

Hah, yet again. Even though I went to bed at 10:30 last night. I think I'm still behind, however, that's probably why I feel like I'm going to collapse.
Well, I'm done spot checking everything for band. I know that the 3 people who actually read this probably don't care. But I do. Which is why it's worth mentioning.
I'm going to Santa Fe on the 6:something flight tomorrow night! Feel free to send goodbye texts as well as pray that the flight is not hampered by millions of reptilian creatures of the serpent variety.
So I'm in love with the new Set Your Goals recored. I've only heard the cover they did of 'Put Yo Hood Up' before now, but I think I should check out their older records too. They're the kind of band that I would love. And I do. So look who's predictable!
Late Night Escapades--Check them outttt!!!! Oh wait, they don't any songs yet. Yet being the operative word. Granted, half of them still need to learn their instruments, but it'll happen. You heard it here first :]]

Gnome Love (It's Magical)

:]]

New Panic! clip. It's love. Even without Jon and Ryan, Brendon and Spencer will prevail. You can't get them down :]]

In other news. Cody Vs. Maddy fight sometime at the lake. Who knows when though, because I'll be in Santa Fe next weekend. Urg. But I guess we could have it over the phone. How that works, I'm not too sure, ask Cody, he's the one who suggested it. Oh, I also discovered that discussing fighting also sounds a bit like discussing rape. It's very awkward. But what can you do? So yeah... Everyone stay tuned to this for fight updates! I'll be sure to win, but it'll be an amusing fight nonetheless, I'm sure.

That's all for now, el lago este fin de semana! iARRIBA!

Ugh, It WOULD Be 18+

I will never meet Tom Conrad now. The show would be 18+. FML. For real. Mel had my hopes up. Now they're crushed. Brittney doesn't think Tom Conrad's cute. Pfft. What does she know? She doesn't like Jon Walker either. The two people I love. Whatever.
I am off to bed on this fine, storming night!

Toodles!

Why Did I Let Him Convince Me I Could Do A Backflip???

Because, as I'm sure you are not surprised to hear, I could not. I landed on my neck, and it really fricking kills.


But it's still my life goal to be able to do flips on the tramp. :]

This Week Was Amazing...

...simply amazing.

If this is "just friends" then I will be the best damn friend he's ever seen.

Okay...

... why did no one like fricking slap me? Aren't you all sick of my moaning about this? Okay, we're friends. Nothing's changed. I don't know why I freaked out so badly. He could be dead or decide that we can't be friends. God, it could be something drastic. But it's not. I'm such a fricking drama queen. I'm over it now. Sure, life sucks, but we're friends. And I can hang out with him without worrying about all of this stuff. So there's a light at the end of the tunnel. It's the sun shining at the lake as we frolic about. Okay, that was retarded sounding. I'm sorry. But jeez. Sorry to anyone who had to listen to me rant on and on about this and kept trying to comfort me. I'm pretty sure you wanted to shake me by the shoulders and scream, "SNAP OUT OF IT WOMAN!" I'm glad you guys didn't, just fyi :] But yeah, that's all for now.

Check back again, there'll probably be some more updates after the 4th of July! If I can be bothered... I mean... if I have time :P

So... It's Getting Better. Certainly Not Easier Though.

Return To Me - The Last Goodnight

I know my voice is silence to your ears
I know I said some things you didn't deserve to hear
I miss you, God I miss you, why do I miss you?
I lie awake at night kicking at the sheets
No matter how much I try they never cover my feet
I need you, God I need you, why do I?
I finally gathered up the strength
To get through my days

You lift me up
(Just to let me down)
You lift me up
(Just to let me down)

You call me on the phone to try to see if I'm at home
You play with my emotions; give me some kind of hope
I miss you, God I miss you, why do I?
I finally gathered up the strength
To get through these lonely, lonely nights

You lift me up (Just to let me down) You lift me up (Just to let me down)

You've got me desperate and confused
And my confidence is thrown
I'd rather be miserable with you
Than ever be alone
You're free, of me

You lift me up
(Just to let me down)

I will change the way I talk
I will change the way I feel
I will change the way I walk
Until nothing left is real
I will change the way I call your name
I will change the way I eat
I will change the way I touch you
When you're lying there asleep
Because I miss you
God I miss you, I miss you
Return to me
Return to me
I will change everything

-small smile-

Since I'm Not Original...

...enough to think of my own thoughts and feelings, here are some more lyrics for your reading pleasure.... You may recognize them, you may not.

"I know my voice is silence to your ears / I know I said some things you didn't deserve to hear / You lift me up / (Just to let me down) / You lift me up / (Just to let me down)" --Return To Me, The Last Goodnight

"Here it is again / yet it stings like the first time / seems it never ends / I thought we were friends / I guess it just depends who you ask / these feelings tend to leave me / with a hole in my chest / [...] / Now the time has come / I just wish I could erase / all the damage done, all this pain / all this heartache / It's only just begun it's been fun / we were fucked up and numb" --Calling All Skeletons, Alkaline Trio

"(How long?) / Before I'm just a memory, / (How long?) / Before you can't remember me, / (How long?) / Remember me." --Swing, Taking Back Sunday

MORE TO COME

Here It Is Again...

... yet it stings like the first time.

So... How many of you bet that this would be coming in the next week? How much did you bet? $10? $20? Well, you'd better pay up.

What happened? you ask.
My life is fucked. I answer.
Why so?
Because I have grown to hate two little words more than anything in existance.
What two little words?
"Just friends"
Oh...
Yeah.
I'm so sorry.
Why did it have to be him?
Because life's a bitch and then you die.

So those of you that stayed up until pretty much like 2 with me. I love you. Thank you so much. I... I freaked. He was my life. What do I do??? You guys... I feel like my life just ended. Brittney would be telling me to be sensible, and Groms and Reks would say all the right things to try and make me feel better. But that's not enough anymore. If I was an artist I would paint my feelings, if I were a poet I'd write a poem, and if I were a lyricist I would write a song. But I'm none of those. I'm Maddy. I'm probably going to be a dentist. I will lose all creative ambition. I'll turn into one of those mindless droids that get up, drink their black coffee, go to work, come home, eat alone, and then sleep. I DON'T WANT THAT! I just want to be happy and know that there's someone who likes me even though I fuck up a lot. I wanted it to be him...

• "I've been waiting for anything- desperately hoping that it was everything. Now it's nothing. I'm back to the start."
• So this is what it feels like to know that the one thing you wanted to experience in your life will never be a possibility. It fucking sucks, dude.
• Some idiot named Thomas Carlyle said that silence was more eloquent than words. Some genius named Maddy said shut the fuck up Thomas Carlyle, talking is what gets the job done.
• Oh, by the way. FUCK YOU 11:11. Way to get my hopes up, just to trample them like a herd of llamas. Yeah, llamas.

Breakeven by The Script

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing

Just prayed to a god that I don't believe in

Cos I got time while she got freedom

Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even

Her best days will be some of my worst

She finally met a man thats gonna put her 1st

While I'm wide awake she's no trouble sleeping

Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even even no

What am I suppose to do when the best part of me was always you

What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and you're okay

I'm falling to pieces

I'm falling to pieces

They say bad things happen for a reason

But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding

Cos she's moved on while I'm still grieving

Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even even no

What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you

What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and you're okay

I'm falling to pieces

I'm falling to pieces

I'm falling to pieces

(One still in love while the other ones leaving)

I'm falling to pieces

(Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even)

You got his heart and my heart and none of the pain

You took your suitcase, I took the blame.

Now I'm tryna make sense of what little remains

Cos you left me with no love, no love to my name.

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing

Just prayed to a god that I don't believe in

Cos I got time while she got freedom

Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even

What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you

What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and you're okay

I'm falling to pieces

I'm falling to pieces

I'm falling to pieces

(One still in love while the other ones leaving)

I'm falling to pieces

(Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even)

The Proposal...

...is a movie in which Zoey and I get married. It's scary how accurate those characters are. And great... I'm a man. Her bitch, to be exact. But that's all right because I love her :]] I had fun with you guyssss though! I'm sure none of you read this. But I like to pretend. We should do this more often

<3 Andrew [Maddy]

Having No Money Sucksss...

• ...and so does not having a season pass to Wild Water West. Grr. Of course my parents would decide to leave at 3:30. I bet they don't get home until 4:30. I will be really fucking pissed if this happens. But it will.
• I think my life is bipolar... It just is so happy and then... BOOM. Crash. Currently it's happy right now. Well, I'M happy right now. Not my life. And in no way did I mean that I was bipolar, because I am certainly not.
• Well... I'm excited for the 4th of July and the week building up to it because I will be spending it with people I loveeeeeeee. AKA Alex. Except totally not, haha.
• So yeah. I've discovered Owl City. Oh how I love them... Well him I guess. But it's the kind of music that I was looking for this summer, it's happy and smooth and a little techno-y? So yeah. Hah, again. But... I don't know what else to talk about?
• Oh, I have to babysit my cousins and they love Disney Channel so I have a budding love for Sterling Knight. You should all look up his face because it is adorable. It makes up for the time that I have to see Skank Lovato's face. Which is always nice.

So that's all... Have a happy weekend :] I'm going to be at the lake tanning it uppp.

CLT: The Technicolor Phase - Owl City

:I am the red in the rose, the flowers on the blankets on your bedroom floor. / And I am the gray in the ghost that hides with your clothes behind your closet door. / I am the green in the grass that bends back from underneath your feet. / And I am the blue in your back alley view where the horizon and the rooftops meet. / If you cut me I suppose I would bleed the colors of the evening stars. / You can go anywhere you wish cause I'll be there, wherever you are, [wherever you are, wherever you are.] / [I will always be your keys when we are lost in the technicolor phase.] / The black in the book the letters on the pages that you memorize. / And I am the orange in the overcast of color that you visualize. / I am the white in the walls that soak up all the sound when you cannot sleep. / And I am the peach in the starfish on the beach that wish the harbor wasn't quite so deep. / If you cut me I suppose I would bleed the colors of the evening stars. / [my darling] / You can go anywhere you wish cause I'll be there, wherever you are. / [my darling. wherever you are, wherever you are, wherever you are]: <3>

Important Things...

...

"To err is human; to forgive, divine." --Alexander Pope

"All I ever wanted was to see you smiling" --Bass(fish)hunter

"I got these memories, they're all of you and me" --Family Force 5

"'Show me how you do it and I promise you I promise that I'll run away with you I'll run away with you'" --The Cure

"Bat your eyes, ball a fist. Passion over consequence, When did the latter take the lead?" --Taking Back Sunday

"You have stolen my heart" --Dashboard Confessional

"We all look like we feel" --Dashboard Confessional

More to come.

YOU'RE GONNA NEED A BODYBAG :]

So guess who's so much happier than she was in the last post? Me! Don't worry, I am not suicidal, nor close to being it... :]]]] I'm glad you worried about me though, but I would never do that. So... I'm just all-around happier. This whole "situation" seems to be better. So that's good.

That's all for now, because I'm off to Zoey's.



LISTEN TO HIT THE LIGHTS. DO IT. OR I WILL KILL YOU.

toodles :]

Why Do I Do This To Myself?

So. I looked at it again. What I said I wouldn't let bother me. It bothered me a lot. It took everything I had to convince myself that it wasn't the truth, that she was just an idiot and didn't know what the hell she was talking about. But... I don't know. She might. And if she does, and is... well... "friends" with him again. Well, then I might have to stab her about 50 times in the chest. Which is violent but that's how I feel. That's how she makes me feel. I want to scream, I want to punch things, I want to call her names and talk shit about her-- that would make me feel better, right? No. Not anymore. That doesn't do any good. Crying over it doesn't do any good. I can text him and say all kinds of things-- I can even go as far as to tell him how I feel about him. I actually convinced myself that if I just TOLD him, everything would be better. Everything would be fine. No, it wasn't. Fail. Honestly? I think he cared exactly as much as a 3 about that text. On a scale from 1 to 10. 10 being you are one of the most important person in my life and I remember everything you said and everything you've ever done around me. Which is approximately what he is to me. FUCK. Why does this have to happen to me? Why? It happens to me because I would be way too lucky to have at least ONE thing go right for me in my life. I have the brains, now I don't get the beauty or the love. I would give up all of my smarts if it meant that he would like me. But then what would I be? I would be her. I will be DAMNED if I turn into her. She is everything I hate in life, everything I aspire to conquer, everything I will never be.

"this is why my life sucks. this is why my unfailing inability to back down from something that i want will kill me. this is why i will lay awake at night. this is how i will single-handedly destroy what should be the best summer of my life. this is what i've chosen. it sucks for me."

Life Is...

Well, certainly not good. I don't have a vehicle for 3 weeks and I am being punished heavily. No more trips to Brandon for quite awhile. FUCK. Of course this happens in the summer when I can actually do stuff. Mmhmm. Because that is how my life works. God is smiting me for not going to Youth Group. Oh, and I get to work in my mom's office too. Yippy skippy! Except not, please shoot me in the head. No one actually reads this, half the time I don't even update this... It's just... I don't know. Kinda nice to have somewhere to write down all your private thoughts that you actually do want people to know about. Without actually telling it to their faces, you know? That's how you weed out the true friends; you just reference something from your blog and if all you get in return is a blank stare you know just how much they love you. I don't know. I've learned a lot about true friends this year though... To the grave. Someone really needs to come save me from myself and the impending boredom that is sure to come as I wallow in self-pity and court shows. And on top of everything... him. I don't even know. I will kill someone if the impacts anything. I don't even know what to call what it is that we have. Okay screw that, it's a friendship, I just can't stand to call it that when I want it to be so much more. Will I do anything about it? Probably not, but who knows? I may harden nerves sitting at home in my bedroom for 3 weeks without contact with anyone who's not family. Tune in next time!

The Weather Is...

... RAINY! Yay! Maybe I won't have to rake this weekend!

Sidenote: Why is my blog being so retarded??

Boredom Is...

...what I am currently prone to these days. Sitting at home is not my idea of a fun weekend. Going to the lake and hanging out with all my friends is my idea of a fun weekend. Spending Easter with my family, while I do love them, does not quite exude the same amount of joy that a bonfire does. But, this is useless. I've begged, pleaded, promised not to crash. Does it work? No. I still cannot drive to the lake to see Brittney who is probably dying. Which she's really not, but my mom doesn't know that!
On a happier note, the water at the lake has risen sufficiently! Randy thinks we'll be able to put the jet ski by the dock again, which is good news for all of us! Hopefully it's up enough that we can put the boat in too, because I'll be damned if that thing's going to sit in the garage again all summer and serve as my resting place while everyone plays pingpong.
AP tests are coming up still and I have not even started to review. I should've gone to the AP World session today, but I was sleeping. I sleep a lot on the days that I can, because I know how valuable it is.
Wow, let's just ramble on for awhile... Ugh. Not even the internet is entertaining me like it normally does. At least I'm not pissed off at the world like I was yesterday. Yesterday was not a good day for me. A lot of things happened that made me mad, but today has been good. Granted I've only been awake for like 3 hours, but still. I think that's pretty good.
Okay, I'm going to go read my life away, toodles!
Oops, before I go, I have a present for all of you! THE DREAMER AND THE SLEEPER. Every song on their Myspace is absolutely amazing.
My favorites include:

• Halloween
• Leaving the Hospital; I'm Going Home
• The Rain Song
• Seventy-Six

So check them out and prepare for your ears to be blown off! Granted, they are slow and melodic, not fast and angry, but I find myself loving them more and more with every listen. I've been listening to them on repeat so that's a lot of love! <3>

Turn Off The Lights And Turn Off The Shyness

Ah... Guess who's been listening to Fall Out Boy for a day straight? ME! They make me happy even though it's fricking snowing out.

Life is kinda sad right now... I'm dreading AP Tests! They are almost upon us and I have not been preparing as needed! Ah!

Toodles, I have to go watch a movie or my eyes will fall out of my sockets from boredom. I don't know what to watch though... Anything is better than having to see Kristen Stewart and her gaping jaw, though!

...

Fuck my life. FUCK my life. FUCK MY LIFE. FUCK MY LIFE.

Hmmm....

Life is kind of super awesome at the moment. I'm sure that won't last when my parents leave for Jamaica over my birthday and I am reduced to house arrest, but it's fine for now. I'm really bored, just sitting at home alone. Oh well, it's practice for house arrest. Which I will be awesome at, since that is just a jump back to what my life was like before Brittney and Co. Or maybe it will be difficult... I won't know until I experience it...

I'm sure I'll be on here again when I have no life due to the damn list. <3

CLT: Sound Of The Sun / Silverstein [Thank you to iTunes and its shufflyness]

BRITTNEY, BRITTNEY! IT'S ON FIRE!

Things I Have Learned Thanks To The Weekend Spent In Brandon:

• Zoey and I do not know how to make cookies.
• Brittney could kill me.
• I make killer muffins.
• If the house was on fire Zoey would be laughing her ass off while I run screaming around like a chicken with my head cut off.

-EEEEEEEEEE-

Okay, let's play a little game. I like games you know. -Spasmatic laughter- Sorry, just thinking. So life's been going pretty good, right? Well, for me it has. Other than the whole, "Holy shit I'm a failure and have been reduced to the masses". That was concerning my grades, just fyi. But really, other than that life has been pretty spiffy and awesome. Someone, -coughMEcough- developed a social life while her parents were MIA, and I have to tell you, it's nice. Well, so there is a point to this post. It's kind of a huge point. So...

Question: Guess who's pretty awesome life is about to be squashed?





Answer: MINE!

Did you get it right? I hope so, because I wouldn't bother typing something about anyone else on here.

Okay, now, who wants to know why my life is soon to end? Tragically, I might add. No guesses? BAND. And not band, band. FRICKING ALL-STATE AND SOLO CONTEST BAND. Yup, so that's going to be a failure and I will let my parents down and they will eat me. As is customary in my family.

Mr. Carlson was telling cannibal jokes today, that's where I got the eating from. Except that it really does happen like that.

Tata for now I suppose. I'll see you in hell! [Unless you're not going there then au revior!]

School. Is. The. Devil.

Wow, my first day back sucked. I hate my classes. Well, the classes are all the same, it's the people that I hate. There are three Maddys (or some spelling variation) in my AP World History class. I hate it, I miss my old class with Jessie and Tracy and one Maddy. (Though Laney was there too, but her name doesn't affect me the way the others do) This semester is going to fricking suck. Study isn't the same anymore, and I forsee no oreo eating contests in the future. :[


That is all.

[we take three steps forward and three steps back]

My Favorite Albums of 2008:
in no particular order (except Kids In Glass Houses)

1. SMART CASUAL - KIDS IN GLASS HOUSES
2. Agony and Irony - Alkaline Trio
3. Pretty. Odd. - Panic! At The Disco
4. Folie a Deux - Fall Out Boy
5. Underdog Alma Mater - Forever The Sickest Kids
6. Daylight Is Coming - Remedy Drive
7. Can't Stop, Won't Stop - The Maine
8. Whisper War - The Cab
9. Rotation - Cute Is What We Aim For
10. Madeline - Tickle Me Pink
11. Want - 3OH!3
12. Appeal To Reason - Rise Against
13. That's What She Said (EP) - The Friday Night Boys
14. The Yippee EP - Nevershoutnever!
15. Fast Times At Barrington High - The Academy Is...
16. Punk Goes Crunk - Various Artists
17. Movement - Thieves And Villains
18. Starf**ker - Starf**ker
19. Sweet Dreams, Sucker - Treaty Of Paris

Most Disappointing Albums of 2008:
in no particular order (notice how this is what Mel already had, but I don't it's because they're bad, just that they never held my attention appropriately. I was SO excited for SIL, but I don't know if I've even listened to the entire CD. Same with Framing Hanley, even though I really love his voice and Hear Me Now.)

• The Moment - Framing Hanley
• Come Around - Sing It Loud

My Favorite Songs in 2008:
note: some of these songs did not come out in 2008, but I discovered them in the year.
in no particular order

• Wow, I Can Get Sexual Too - Say Anything
• I Got Your Money (Ol' Dirty Bastard) - Say Anything
• One-X (The entire CD) - Three Days Grace
• Calling All Skeletons - Alkaline Trio
• Stolen - Dashboard Confessional
• Television Off, Party On (The entire CD) - Forever The Sickest Kids
• Fat Lip - Sum 41
• The Sky's Alive - Remedy Drive
• Flagpole Sitta - Harvey Danger
• Stay With You - The Goo Goo Dolls
• Say It Ain't So - Weezer
• How Will I Know (Whitney Houston) - Hit The Lights
• Inside Of You - Hoobastank
• Cross My Heart - Marianas Trench
• Any and all Dane Cook
• Dream Girl - Basshunter
• The Flood - Escape The Fate
• Here Goes Nothin' - Nevershoutnever!
• Pop Song - Starf**ker
• Smart Casual (The entire CD) - Kids In Glass Houses
• Goodbye, I'm Sorry - And Then I Turned Seven
• Everything I Ask For - The Maine
• Oh My - Office
• Do The Panic - Phantom Planet

Best Artists Discovered in 2008:
in no particular order

• Say Anything
• Nevershoutnever!
• Basshunter
• The Maine
• Hit The Lights
• The Friday Night Boys
• Framing Hanley
• Thieves And Villains
• Dane Cook
• Starf**ker
• Pagoda
• Tickle Me Pink
• Rise Against
• Kids In Glass Houses
• 3OH!3
• Four Year Strong
• Cute Is What We Aim For
• Office
• Anberlin
• All Time Low
• Phantom Planet
• 504 Plan
• The Sounds

Best New Band of 2008:
KIDS IN GLASS HOUSES

Kids in Glass Houses are a five-piece rock band from the surrounding valleys of Cardiff, the capital of Wales. The band's name is inspired by a lyric in Glassjaw song 'Tip Your Bartender'. The line is "not throwing stones at you anymore". Their most current album is "Smart Casual". I love them so much. Words cannot describe this album. Too bad they're not from the US, otherwise I'd probably get a chance to see them. This entire album is so fricking amazing. I could listen to it for days. And frequently do.

Most Anticipated for 2009:

• Panic! At The Disco
• Taking Back Sunday
• Envy On The Coast
• Say Anything
• Cobra Starship
• (Pretty much anything in the AP Most Anticipated.)

And to think, I thought I had such unique tastes. Good to know I love everyone the masses love!

[While slaving away at this post, Maddy was listening to Agony and Irony, The Yippee EP, and Smart Casual.]