Life Is...

Well, certainly not good. I don't have a vehicle for 3 weeks and I am being punished heavily. No more trips to Brandon for quite awhile. FUCK. Of course this happens in the summer when I can actually do stuff. Mmhmm. Because that is how my life works. God is smiting me for not going to Youth Group. Oh, and I get to work in my mom's office too. Yippy skippy! Except not, please shoot me in the head. No one actually reads this, half the time I don't even update this... It's just... I don't know. Kinda nice to have somewhere to write down all your private thoughts that you actually do want people to know about. Without actually telling it to their faces, you know? That's how you weed out the true friends; you just reference something from your blog and if all you get in return is a blank stare you know just how much they love you. I don't know. I've learned a lot about true friends this year though... To the grave. Someone really needs to come save me from myself and the impending boredom that is sure to come as I wallow in self-pity and court shows. And on top of everything... him. I don't even know. I will kill someone if the impacts anything. I don't even know what to call what it is that we have. Okay screw that, it's a friendship, I just can't stand to call it that when I want it to be so much more. Will I do anything about it? Probably not, but who knows? I may harden nerves sitting at home in my bedroom for 3 weeks without contact with anyone who's not family. Tune in next time!