Oh... The Irony Is Killing

"...you know Nugget and Sour's like stalkers? Okay, yea i wish i could be dumb enough to write an entire paragraph to your facebook ...wall like every five god damn seconds. Yo. . .So i completly also figured their retarted, and so is well, chewyy"


---If you're going to be a fucking dumb bitch and write shit like this, please make sure you understand what the words mean that you're using.
I.E.
STALKERS: Dumb bitches that make fake Facebook profiles and then add the 'stalkee' as a friend. These dipshits also add friends of the 'stalkee' in hopes that they'll dig up some interesting information. They then proceed to comment on the 'stalkee''s profile pictures: "yummy", walls, and on statuses. Not only do they comment on things, but also they get really super angry when you expose them to the 'stalkee'. I've had such unpleasant experiences with stalkers, though always second-hand, thank God. After being exposed, they then get deleted off the 'stalkee''s friend list. As they should be. Unfortunately, via Facebook, you cannot have anyone committed to a mental hospital with the click of a mouse, much like deleting a psycho off your friend list. There's always hope for the future though!
PARAGRAPHS: WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU THINK YOU JUST WROTE YOU FUCKTARD? At least mine are full of love and inside jokes, instead of jealousy and rage. And bitterness. And I'm sorry that we're so much funnier than you, that we have normally proportioned faces, and that we're not giant ogres. Oops... I did I just say that? I obviously didn't mean any of that, because, as you said, I'm a "sweetheart". Fuck you, Grease Monkey. And guess what? You are dumb enough.
...WALL: Just for future reference, the actual word is "wall", and those things in front of it? Yeah, they're ellipses, and they're not attached to the word wall. Please go to fucking English class once in awhile instead of ditching to hang out in your school's bathroom's [cause that's just soooo cool].
YO: You're not black. In fact, you're really, really white. Please stop using ghetto slang like this, because really it's just an embarrassment to EVERYONE who reads it.


And, just as a closing note, the fact that we're BEST FRIENDS with them does not make us fucking stalkers. The fact that you have codenames for them, and fucking dumbassed ones at that, makes YOU a stalker. I wish you could see yourself as everyone else sees you, because you would, well, SHOULD, be appalled. Please go back to wherever you came from and leave my friends and I out of your shit.


Love


M


(:

It Had To Be You

You're ours.
Not hers.
Ours.
I claim you.
We dibs'd you.
All the way back when we first met.
If you're not going to talk to Hector...
Then you're talking to me instead.
Not her.
I miss you!
But I'm glad you texted me today!
Like, all day.
Because I love it when you're creepy.
You're so much more fun when you're creepy.
And, with your assistance, suggestive smiley will once again be 5th.
YAY!
It had to be you.
I <3 you.
Long hair dominates EVERYTHING.
I win.
That's all.
Today's been a pretty good day.


Listen to Motion City Soundtrack. They'll make you happy. :]]]

I Hate This.

I hate talking to you.
I hate it.
I hate having all of these expectations.
I hate having them crushed.
This is so goddamn frustrating.
Why do I keep doing this to myself?
I just don't even understand.
Apparently this is what happens.
God, I can't wait for summer.
I am determined.
And when I'm determined... watch out.
It better be fucking awesome.
This summer, that is.
Because I've gone through hell.
And I want a break from it all.
To relax.
To hang out.
To have fun.
To cultivate relationships.
Why do I say things like that?
I mean to find myself a boyfriend.
Obviously.
This is why I am alone.

I should be doing AP Chem now. FML for real. This week is so stressful. Shoot me in the head and put me out of my misery? KTHANKSBYE.

January 7th, 2009

Best day of my life.

The Classic "It's Not You, It's Me"

I promise that what I'm struggling with right now, what you want to make go away, is not your fault. And I've never meant anything more in my life. Please believe me. It's my fault... For not being about to accept things, for hating what I did, for wanting this so much. Quoting Glee: "I want everything too much". I mean... I guess I wish that things hadn't turned out like this, but if this is what you truly want... Well... I guess I'll get over it. It's not like you haven't told me all of this before. I just keep hoping that it's not true. The dreamer in me wants there to be something so badly. I guess I'm just like her... Not letting it go... This is everything I never wanted to happen. I just wanted to be around you. To be friends... Best friends... more? I'm sorry you had to go through this, I'm sorry you had to experience this side of my personality... You've never been anything less than amazing, and I will always love you. I promise. I've never broken a promise I made to you, and I never will. I wish I could talk to you about this. I really, really do. We almost did tonight, but I'm not brave enough. I don't want you to freak out at me or be weirded out. Or even just distance yourself from me. I want you to change your mind. But you won't. ...and deep down in my heart, I know that, but it's wishful thinking.

You're an amazing guy, and I'm so glad that I met you. I am honored, that out of everyone, we seem to be the closest. That's probably because of what went on, early in our friendship, but just know that you made me who I am today. I cried myself to sleep so many times because of you, I sat up half the night just thinking about us, and I had so many emotional breakdowns, but it's shaped me as a person, and the only thing I regret is not telling you sooner; not having the courage. Nothing you ever do or say will change the way I feel about you. I will always love you, I promise.  <3

[when I see your smile, tears run down my face... I will never let you fall, I'll stand up with you forever. I'll be there for you through it all, even if saving you sends me to Heaven... seasons are changing and waves are crashing and stars are falling all for us. days grow longer and nights grow shorter. I can show you, I'll be the one]

...This Whole "Healing" Process... Yeah It Sucks.

"To you: I'm sorry for even saying anything. I wish I was strong enough to tell you... maybe the outcome would be fine. But I'm just not..."

"you say you want to make it go away? I do too. but you've made your choice clear... it's me that's the problem. "

"just please stop caring... stop asking... I want to tell you... but I can't... it's for your own good... I'm asking you to trust me... "

pathetic Twitters that I should just post here instead of posting there. no one cares anyways, and it's just a waste of space on Twitter. on here... I could give a damn what people think.

Defying Gravity. The Kurt Version.

[something has changed within me

something is not the same

I'm through with playing by the rules

of someone else's game

too late for second guessing

too late to go back to sleep

it's time to trust my instincts

close my eyes and leap

it's time to try

defying gravity

I think I'll try

defying gravity

kiss me goodbye

I'm defying gravity

and you won't bring me down...

I'm through accepting limits

'cause someone says they're so

some things I cannot change

but 'til I try I'll never know

too long I've been afraid of

losing love I guess I've lost

well if that's love

it comes at much too high a cost

I'd sooner buy

defying gravity

kiss me goodbye

I'm defying gravity

I think I'll try

defying gravity

and you won't bring me down...

I'd sooner buy

defying gravity

kiss me goodbye

I'm defying gravity

I think I'll try

defying gravity

and you won't bring me down,

bring me down

ahhhhhh]

This is pretty much the most beautiful song I've ever heard in my life. Kurt Hummel, AKA Chris Colfer, from Glee sings this on the show. Well, he sings a duet with the obviously less attractive Rachel, but I've got his solo version. It's amazing. I was all ready to write a horrible angsty post, because that's how I am today, but then I decided to post this instead. Anyone who reads this needs to go watch a youtube video of him singing this song, and then they too will understand why I love him. Never mind the fact that he's clearly gay in real life. He's super cute and is my favorite character from that show.

Me encanta Kurt Hummel. x a billion.