This Was No Accident...

How do you even begin to describe something as amazing as last night? How do you convey the emotions you felt as you saw your favorite band, the one you adopted when they were just starting out, still included El Diablo, and had those terrible haircuts, preform the greatest concert ever? How do you remember every little detail from it, to replay in your mind every time you have a moment to yourself? How do you explain to people what truly happened? How do tell the story without forgetting something, only to remember later? How do you keep from thinking about it? How do you convince yourself that it wasn't really that amazing? How do you keep your mouth shut when people look like they want to kill you because you've told them the same fucking story 4 times now? How do you put into words what you felt and what you witnessed as just another person in the crowd? How do you make someone feel as if they were there, properly, and not just imagining it?

Answer: You don't.

That concert made me realize how much I do love them. I mean, I know the extent of my love, and I'm sure you all do too, but watching them play Camisado literally brought tears to my eyes. It's been almost 2 years since we saw them last, and a lot has changed, with us and with them. They've exploded onto "the scene", and we've matured and switched schools. We've made new friends and lost some. They've gained fans and lost some. I was nervous about Pretty. Odd. I was, terrified in fact. What was going to happen if I hated that album? I couldn't just drop them, they're my favorite band. Favorite. I have a lot of favorite things, and I tend to use the word loosely. This is my absolute favorite band in the entire world. How was I to know that they would get so big, so fast? Obviously they weren't playing in bars when I discovered them, but they weren't playing in amphitheatres either. I'm so proud of them, and I hope they continue to amaze and astound.

Lying... also brought tears to my eyes. This is what started it all. A song about "fucking" as Brendon says. This song is the highest played Panic! song I have for a reason. They played this at the Nothing Rhymes With Circus show and for me to hear it at the Honda Civic Tour brought back memories from over 2 years ago. They played it just as good as they did 2 years ago.

I'm sure most of you know that Camisado is my favorite Panic! song ever. It's not that I can relate, no alcoholic dad for me, but it connected with me in a way I don't even know. I was singing along at the top of my lungs at the NRWC show, terribly, I might add. HCT was a bit different. Okay, so they've got 2 solid albums out, roughly 28 songs. Which do they play? I was assuming that they would play all the singles and the most well known. They played most of those, but then for us "die-hard" fans, they threw in a couple less well-known songs off AFYCSO. They played Camisado and I started screaming and singing and laughing and tearing up all at the same time. It's amazing what Panic! At The Disco can cause you to do. Brendon, Ryan, Spencer, and Jon, I am so grateful for everything you do.

Oh God, this is a sap post again! DAMN! I'm gonna have to lighten my life up a bit...

I just wanted to post and say thank you to everyone that was there, it was unbelievable to spend that night with you and to say that we share the memories. Love you guys!



...This Was A Therapeutic Chain Of Events.